#sometimes I’m like I am making. no sense lol.
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Ur art is such an inspiration and motivation for me, as a fellow artist. I’ve been following ur stuff for a bit now and I was wondering how you decided to draw loid, yor, and anya the way you do. I say this bc I really want to start making my own fan arts, but i struggle to take this anime style and have these character read as [insert character] without it being in a “anime style.”
And I guess this applies to any character you want take from a media, and translate it into your style. Bc i don’t necessarily think ur art style is considered “anime” i kinda just see it as an abstraction ig. But even if it is, it isn’t in the style of anime show is yk? Yet the characters read as who they’re supposed to be.
And I think a while back you u mentioned that you were struggling on decided how to draw loid. ig i wanna know How did you come to the decision that “yes, this looks correct and I wanna draw him like this.”
Is it finding defining feature and proportions? Just messing around until you figure something out? And I assume you make a character sheet to keep it consistent?
Like i literally go to art school but cant draw anything without a reference photo and it killing me 😔💀💀
Sorry for the yapp i’m just down bad rn and really love ur work. Please help be get out of the reference photo trap😭
Also sorry if this reads weird and has errors i’m sleep deprived and can’t bring myself to go back and reread
WHAIUGOUGH???? UR TOO KIND??? THANK U
i will try my best to answer below, but i dont think it is anything profound or super secret lmao
so i think that artists get really caught up with finding/establishing a style when they are first starting out. i say this because i was no different. to me it was like 'oh if i have a style then i am a Real artist instead of just a copier'
but like, i think that order is backwards. like the more that you draw things you enjoy, the more those drawings will become your own and in your 'style' if that makes sense. heavy emphasis on the quantity here. you just gotta go really at it. and the best way to do this is through sheer quantity tbh.
however at the same time, i dont really agree with the whole 'draw x things per day every day' thing cuz sometimes thats just hard man. i mean you mentioned you were in art school so you're probably drawing every day anyways, but for a hobbyist or fanartist (me lol) its mostly based on whether u feel like drawing or not. Which is why its rlly cool when you have a show/book/movie/anything you're really into which makes you want to draw more! it becomes something fun rather than a chore.
so basically, dont view a style as something you have to develop right away, or turn drawing into a chore, because that will be very counteractive trust me.
another important thing i wanted to mention, you said "reference photo trap" but ITS NOT A TRAP! USE REFERENCES!!! REFERENCES ARE IMPORTANT AND GOOD (i am assuming you already know this, but using references is not the same as tracing. just to make it clear)
this is another thing common with newer artists (and of course how i used to be), where you feel like you have to draw 'from your mind' for it to be an indicator of any skill. NOT TRUE!! you need to use references to get better!
lastly, to answer your question (as best i can lol) there was never any point when i decided 'yes this is it' when drawing. you just draw and draw and keep changing and growing. it is a little of everything you said (defining features, proportions, messing around) but it is also just drawing a lot and having fun! :D oh and i definitely do not have a character sheet. i am not anywhere near that organized LMAO
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love the explanations you have for each tarot, especially yuki’s and alex’s!! please keep the commentary coming!!
!!!! Thank you!!! This is my favorite part of doing this series :-). I just think it’s no fun without the explanations!!
This series is nice bc there’s like. No right answer to a card?? So even though I’m ADAMANT in most of my choices. Like to me Lando IS the death card, and Yuki IS the Moon etc etc there are lots of people who I’ve talked to that totally disagree and have a way different perspective and it’s so cool to hear that!!! I talked to someone recently that wants to do this with all classic f1 drivers like that’s SO SICK
At some point I might put out my little google doc with the tarot defs and my reasonings for each card lol
#there’s nothing more I love to talk about than this#like genuinely#PLEASE tell me who you think the hierophant is#or why you think the fia is the wheel of fortune#like ugh it’s just so cool#I love art#I love art and art interpretations I could talk about this for hours#anon I’m so glad you enjoy the commentary#sometimes I’m like I am making. no sense lol.#ask anni#f1 tarot
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#last night was really so so so fun and it was super hard to get myself to go out? like#in the sense of I really wanted to because I knew it would be fun but I also knew my anxiety was eating me alive#and it would be an obstacle getting through that without alcohol and I need to be … careful#but I got fun drunk and didn’t have too bad of a hangover and didn’t feel super anxious once we got out :#and a different friend wants to make plans for tonight but I am really bad at making plans in advance because sometimes I physically can’t#do things after work bc tired bc neuro disorder and it’s frustrating to my friend with severe control issues#bc she needs to make specific plans like a week out and I’m like erm babe I can’t like#do that? and then if I don’t feel well day of and need to be home she gets (rightfully) frustrated because I’m bailing but it’s#challenging. and you don’t understand unless you live with it.#and it’s frustrating for us both. I don’t want her to think I don’t value her because I do and I force myself out often enough bc I#genuinely feel bad. but it’s so fucking hard sometimes . she also lives sort of far so going from work and having#to drive an hour to her place to then go somewhere and be out like#I’m spent before I even get there#friend I saw last night and I don’t talk consistently but when we do it’s always the same vibe and so fun and we just catch up about life#I feel like when I see my other friends they have things to always talk about because they’re in a discord call almost every night#I don’t have the energy!!!!!!!!!! like I’m so sorry that’s so much for me#idk she isn’t answering me now but if she wants to do something I need to know in the next hr bc if not I’m literally going to bed#I love her but there’s a disconnect between us rn and I don’t know how to mend that gap#but I do love her friendship so I’m just like. sigh#idk it would be different if she was closer and I know that#I hope getting back on medication helps get me being more social again. I’m just so tired this week that speaking is hard lol
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you know what I’ve realized lately? that’s really helped? the axiom: it just doesn’t really make that much of a difference. Or at least it doesn’t when you’re talking about good things and not, like, doing good vs. doing evil. Big choices, little choices, decisions, decisions —it’s not just that they don’t matter in the grand scheme of things—because they do! —but just. It won’t make that big of a difference. Life will continue to be wonderful AND difficult, fascinating AND hopelessly mundane, full of roses AND thorns and all the other cliches whether you walk down one road or another. And you’ll get used to the joys and sick of the sorrows whatever they are, and you’ll be ungrateful and bored and dissatisfied in some measure some of the time and you’ll have to work on all the things you have to work on anyways and just. Yeah! It doesn’t make that big of a difference! Even the biggest things!
#as Maria once said to me iconically: marry the guy don’t marry the guy#life is hard and it sucks and it’s also great and little treats exist#and we have to practice patience and virtue and penance regardless of any other circumstances#and God loves us no matter the path we take#like I just. I am reflecting#you know what also made this click for me recently? the limits that can be reached with doing little things to improve your life#like YES. I need to get some exercise and eat some food that is not totally terrible for me and clean my space#but you know the fuck WHAT#(I’m so sorry for swearing)#it doesn’t !!! actually !!!!! dramatically alter my life if I do one thing or another or in a certain order#I could become a fanatical hiker (for some reason I have been seized by the vision of this lately)#and it’s just like. well. yes you could. and you know what it would keep raining sometimes and my anxiety would still exist#and people would still be irritating and laughter would still be real!#anyway I don’t mean to be dismissive over the ways choices can deeply affect our lives#but when the choices are good and the options are good it just doesn’t matter that much#I also realized this with makeup lol. like I reached the point where I was like I could spend more time and effort and money#to achieve a higher level quality of appearance and literally for WHAT#people would still not pay attention to me in the grocery store (lol)#and they don’t need to!!!!! and it’s fine they don’t!!!!!!!#but I just. that voice in my head that’s like if you do X you will experience happiness you have never known#and things will all work out and everyone will be in love you#to that voice I say: well no.#wow this is long but you know what I mean????? it all just sort of matters less in the sense that nothing WE do is going to really#change our lives? I know that’s insane#because people are so insistent that the opposite is true. but like. actually no the most life changing opportunities usually happen#without our control or our scheming or our planning#so of the stuff within our control it’s not that big of a deal!! do good avoid evil enjoy your lunch call your mom!!! but that’s all gonna#keep being the same on the other side of so many many different choices we can make#so yeah
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Does anyone know of any aroace identities that are centered on fluctuations of both gender attraction and aroace feelings? Like I never feel allosexual/alloromantic, but aceflux specifically is about the gender of attraction not changing but for me it does! It never goes outside of aroace which is why I don’t feel abroseuxal fits me, but surely I can’t be the only person who feels this way right? xD
#I don’t know if this makes sense lol#like I know it doesn’t really matter but maybe I’m just bothered because I’m like#surely this identity has to exist right?#Like it’s not just that sometimes I feel asexual and sometimes demisexual#I do feel those changes but also sometimes I am more romantically into women or sexually into men#or whatever random combinations you can imagine#but the attraction is still limited to an aroace spectrum#It just changes lol
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i’m tired. why can’t i consume things normally. or at least consume them abnormally but in the way that other people consume them abnormally and not in this weird isolating way where i feel the need to overexplain myself whenever i talk about the thing i’m consuming so people understand me and my thought process
#it’s the social anxiety or something idk i know it’s in my head#i want to talk abt the things that i like but i feel like i can’t explain to other fans my process of being a fan?#does that makes sense?#bc i know i approach it a bit differently#which is fine by itself but then i feel the need to justify lol#which is literally what i am doing right now 💀#also why i write a lot in the tags all the time lmao#and realistically is probably connected w being trans and always feeling like i’m intruding on spaces that don’t belong to me#bc i feel like although sports are very male-fan-dominated#spaces like tumblr *tend* to have more women#and a lot of the ppl i interact with (though certainly not all) are women so i always feel weird talking abt my interests/opinions#bc i think it makes my perspective difficult to related to sometimes which j understand#but it still makes me feel shit sometimes
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#I’ve realize I am likely an outlier in this regard and I want to confirm#also it’s hard for me to even answer cause like I talk to myself in public with other people present but like.#my volume depends on the conversation. also how articulate I am depends on the conversation#cause like. idk I won’t think in words very well unless I vocialize it or write it down#and if im on the go or just like existing that usually means talking to myself#I’ve realized that like 99% of other ppl I know don’t do this or at least don’t do it as brazenly as I do#and it makes sense why random ppl sometimes act like I’m off putting or weird or think I’m mentally ill (they’re not wrong lol)#but I didn’t really realize other ppl didn’t do this until recently and I’m like oh#but I wanna know how many ppl DO do this but mask it better than me vs how many people just… don’t#vs how many ppl just don’t#polls#tumblr polls#mental illness#neurodivergent#talking to myself#talking to yourself#googoogajoob
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Yesterday I watched Cartoon Saloon’s short “Screecher’s Reach”, and thought Daal’s hair was almost exactly like how I envision Mathilde Lachance’s hair, so I decided to try and draw her. Today I stopped cleaning up the sketch after about an hour because I got bored, so it’s going here.
#nevermoor#nevermoor fanart#mathilde lachance#idk if anyone’s ever drawn her before (which makes sense bc no description) but I wanted to give it a shot#I’ve always envisioned her like. goth former art student. just the vibe of a pretentious 20s-30s artist who is also kinda goth. for funsies#when I said this blog is where I ‘dump’ my fanart I am being serious. bc sometimes I just quit part way through. lol.#I always try to be one of those ppl that ‘renders’ just by cleaning up their sketch + flats and then I always get bored and stop doing it#I need to stop avoiding doing lineart bc I actually enjoy doing it. when I do otherwise I just end up w a bunch of half finished stuff loll#anyways. I haven’t drawn in ages bc college sucked all my time and energy. but I just graduated 💪 and I’m excited to get back into things.#especially nevermoor stuff!!! bc I have so many ideas!!!!!#fun fact for if you’ve read this far: I like giving wundersmiths bright golden eye highlights when I draw them. just for fun!#the gold of wunder goes sooo well w the black/purple color scheme of morrigan. genius idea from jess. that’s why I always love drawing mog!#I may never draw stuff but rest assured I’m always thinking abt how I would draw nevermoor ppl/places/things and why#I have so many thoughts and my nevermoor brainrot is also is where my art/animation brain and media adaptation brain get to combine#I am going to be insufferable when (if?) the movie starts being made and I am not even sorry#anyways. enjoy this lq image. bc this is a screenshot and I have a problem with drawing way too small lol. oops.
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i think it’s really funny how growing up i didn’t understand social interaction to the point i never even realised i didn’t understand social interaction/social rules and cues/children things. like there’s a plethora of social things that are “normal” that i never got to do growing up. ive only recently realised this by the way bc university forces me to talk with people and i have a lot of difficulty Talking With Them. not in a socially anxious way (im not) but like. with tone and meaning and wording and being blunt. lol im extremely straightforward and people 1. do not like that 2. don’t think i’m being serious (?). sometimes i feel like i live in a different world why do people don’t understand what im saying. anyway random and i’m rambling but i’ve been thinking about this
#this year i played uno for the first time in my life#but i swear to god social interaction is such a struggle to me because i don’t understand what i’m doing wrong#i don’t get what’s different from How I Talk to how Other People Talk#also lol im sooooo literal sometimes it’s frustrating#and sometimes like i even process things like sarcasm and irony but my brain decides to ignore it bc it makes no sense#or i decide to take things at face value bc i don’t think the sarcasm makes sense in context#i think sarcasm is kinda dumb btw lol just say what you mean already#anyway it’s 5 am and i have a terrible headache ♡
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hi so i saw that you saw my tag on the world post and i wanted you to know that it made me so fucking happy it resonated with you!!!! i saw that post a few months ago and i wrote a whole poem about it & thats a line from it!!!! i actually screamed a little when i saw your reblog!!!!
WHAT!!!!! A WHOLE POEM!!!! omg I would love to read this poem if you’d like to share 😭😭
I’m happy that the post inspired you 💖💖🥺 it’s been a humbling and emotional experience reading everyone’s responses to ‘The World Has Been Changed’, and seeing all the different ways it’s touched people.
I had no idea how powerful it would end up being when I first shared it, but I think the fact that it was created by the total coincidence of a mundane message from a computer dialogue box is a significant part of what gives it meaning.
it’s amazing that a machine, a computer program designed simply to be used as a tool for artists, was able to deliver a startling moment of clarity at exactly the right time for humans to connect with in in the way that we did.
coincidences like this feel like a reminder that all things are connected, and that humans will see art everywhere… I think this is because creation is one of our deepest instincts as conscious beings, and everything we make can be considered art in one form or another.
there is a deep sense of resonance when, miraculously, the things we’ve created give us back a creation of their own.
#incessant meowing#something something the inherent inseparability of humanity and the divine#i’m not a religious person but i am an artist#and sometimes being an artist makes you begin to understand the motivations of god#anyways i hope i've gathered enough of a hippie/animist/artist/pantheist follower base that this will make sense to at least some ppl lol#i’m directly at the forefront of the current technological cutting edge#due to working in the xr field#and man…. let me tell you…. humans are creating some incredible things right now#i know the world is suffering incredibly#but it still feels like we are so close to a turning point towards something good#i’m hopeful because i don’t want to be pessimistic anymore#and there is still so much beauty if you know how to look
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2nd message into a conversation w someone here and i was indirectly being asked what’s in my pants bc they wanted to know “what kind of person they were talking to”
… as far as i’m concerned i’m just a trans guy and that’s pretty obvious. but “what kind of person” just made me feel like more of an object.
i’m not one for call out posts unless it’s something REALLY bad so while i won’t be saying who this was, if it wasn’t already obvious, please NEVER ask not even just trans people but ANYONE what genitals they have.
i didn’t know it was necessary information to have in order to, not even just engage in tickles, but have a conversation first??? like damn.
#and i even tried to nicely educate them after#and got ignored lol#why can’t people just treat trans people like… human beings?#this is why i’m so on and off with making new friends here sometimes#i’m either put into a box or category that helps the person make sense of my identity and it’s usually not the male/guy box 🙄#or i’m fetishized#or i’m a 2nd choice bc some gross man can’t get girls so he goes for me since it’s assumed i have the same parts#which no i didn’t get bottom surgery but it’s still very different down there on T#like ugh#sorry to vent#i just wanna be more than trans sometimes#more than what’s in my pants#not identified or categorized by these things#but by the person i am#by the guy i am#who i am#ugh
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#sigh. puts up the barricades please I do not want to see d.nf on my dash#and again I do have it super filtered#I’m just soooo tired every little thing being HARD LAUNCH HARD LAUNCH until the next thing bc of course that didn’t happen#and life went on as usual#look I get it I’m the minority I’m aroace and easily exhausted by shipping esp real ppl shipping#but it’s times like this I miss the lore fandom bc man the complete focus on platonic dynamics and relationships was so nice#look if they ever actually say they’re dating I guess I’ll eat my words but so far I am not getting the sense that that will ever happen#and so it is extremely annoying to want to follow drm fans and get 90% of One Single Ship#and no sap except as third wheel for said ship#sorry I’m the only one who seems to not care abt George 😭😭 not in a bad way just. he’s fine and funny sometimes I guess but#I Just Don’t Care. and also another thing I need to get off my chest#why do ppl act like George is really shady and passive aggressive and ‘oh he should interact w X person who wronged drm he’d ROAST THEM!’#like huh#George is one of the most Don’t talk about anything be vague be private ppl ever#I’m not saying he hasn’t had his moments of public support for drm but I just don’t get it#(it’s probably because he’s so vague and noncommittal that fans can just project their own feelings onto him)#sigh anyway I’m done that makes me feel better a bit#no tags just venting#<- it’s funny that became my venting tag now that I only vent in tags#bc some things such as this I am afraid to even put under read more lol
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you ever have moments when you look in the mirror like “damn. I really be Ugly ugly”?
#personal#blurgleshutthefuckup#listen this is not one of those ‘EVERYONE IS BEAUTIFUL’ posts like#I swear I’m not fishing I just like. objectively speaking#based on the society we are raised in!! by those standards!!!#I am not very conventionally attractive#and I think I may have been UNconventionally attractive when I was younger#but aging hasn’t been kind to me lmao#and idk I’m just bummed with the way I look and it be like that sometimes#don’t get me wrong!! sometimes I like the way I look!#today is not one of those days that’s all#I’m tired and my hair looks gross and my face looks puffy and weird and it’s fine but it’s a bummer#I hope that makes sense lol
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One of my many talents is the ability to do things, but not know I can do things
#random post#I’m being silly for the most part lol#tho I’m always surprised when I draw smth nice or am able to do smth well#shocked like when a deer sheds their antlers lol. like ‘WHATHFUCK IS THAT?!?!’#every day I forget I draw and every day I remember that fact#I may always be thinking about my ocs. but I’m not always thinking about drawing if that makes sense. like it’s 2 separate things that mesh#sometimes. so if that isn’t coherent I’m experiencing the consequences of my actions (hunger and thirst)#anyways when I first played beatsaber I shocked everyone and myself when I was able to keep up the faster paces#I guess I’ve just had practice with quick things like that before? I play a game where it’s very ‘push button at right time’ and that one#also goes pretty fast. idk tho. anyways I learn things about myself and it’s fun (like when I realized my right shoulder may have the#ability to dislocate? not entirely sure there but it looks really fucked when I move certain ways)#I’ve also noticed my left eyebrow will subconsciously just raise on its own. not like the Rock style or anything lol but you can obviously#see it. also I can lift my right brow on its own without moving any other muscle on my face so that’s neat#I can also move my ears! it’s from all those years of trying to keep my glasses on my face lol#anyways I’m rambling and I need to eat now so <3
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Hi sorry just thinking about the absurdity of there being fucking ATHEIST CATS in Warrior Cats when cat heaven is UNDENIABLY REAL and gives four members of their society NINE LIVES and you can watch them DIE and then COME BACK TO LIFE
It’s been years since I read the books and I can’t access my copy of The Darkest Hour but I’m pretty sure CLOUDTAIL was the one fighting Scourge when Firestar literally got up after being DEAD and got right back into the battle, HOW do you stay an atheist after witnessing someone get fucking resurrected right in front of you 😭😭😭
#to clarify I am not religious lol this is not powered by real life opinions#but Jesus Christ that’s an issue for me#mothwing makes a LITTLE more sense to me but CLOUDTAIL???#warrior cats#mine#tw death#cloudtail watching his uncle come back to life like yeah I guess that just happens sometimes idk I’m not a doctor#cloudtail please 😭
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#sometimes I wonder if I’m as healed as I think I am#one day last summer I just woke up sad and it feels like I’m still waking up sad#there’s been a lot of good things that have happened between then and now#and I’ve created some memories that I keep v close to my heart#but if I could just hit pause on life rn I would#just a break to sleep and read and experience life w out any responsibilities or bills#like if I’m healed and have been in therapy for so long then why I still got MDD my guy?#I know why. I just need to be able to have the energy to do those things and I just do not#cuz of the MDD lol like it makes no sense#on top of all that#I’m not even a full 2 months in to this year and I’ve had like 1000 beginnings and endings already#honestly what I’m really worried about is that by the end of the year everything would have worked out#and I wasn’t able to be present enough to enjoy it and cherish it and truly appreciate it#sometimes I wake up and I’m so in love w the world#and sometimes I wake up and I can’t understand why I’m doing all this when I’m going to die one day#I just want to wake up everyday happy ya know#anyways.
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